Overwhelmed: an ADDICTION trigger? + new GOALS!

This is officially my 2nd day of Nailing November (it took me Monday to Wednesday to clean up my act!) and i am discovering a few little things about myself:

I decided to kick off day 1 with a fast - wednesday night to thursday night, and it went fantastic. I learnt that in order to do a successful fast and feel great about it is to be in the right headspace. I believe the reason i have shyed away from ESE over the past few months was because of my negative mindset. I had let Ms Binge/Food Fairy take control over me instead of the other way around. This led me to HATING the fasting days bringing up feelings of deprivation and resentment. Food was always on the mind so i was always counting down the hours until i could eat again. In the end i just gave up the fasting because breaking the food addiction wasn't number 1 on my priority list.

This week is completely different. I am COMMITTED to saying NO to snacking in between meals. My mindset is positive and i am ready to achieve sexy-bitch results again. I am determined to achieve my goal by new year and more importantly i BELIEVE i can do it!

During my fast yesterday i had a lightbulb moment. I figured out one of my ADDICTION TRIGGERS that i believe has been the cause of most of my snacking/binging.... Being OVERWHELMED. Yep thats right!

I had to complete my expenses for work yesterday as they are due pronto! Now as you know i have been doing a shit load of traveling this past month and i've racked up an Amex bill of $1359! Ah work are gonna love me lol and thats not including airfares or car-hire! The big mistake i made was coming home from the airport after each trip and filing in chronological order dumping my tax receipts into a pile in a drawer... so they could just evaoprate lol. What i should have done was put them into my spreadsheet straight away and saved myself a LOT of stress aka 'overwhelmingness'!

You see, there are a few things in my life the overwhelm me: parts of my job -booking new appts and EXPENSES; vacuuming; mopping.. where's Ms Cleaning Fairy!?; opening up the mail and putting mail in the post (yeah that's a wierd one haha) and thats all i can think of right now. And what i do is put them aside and procrastinate thus allowing the anxiety to slowly build and bubble away in my head. Before long, i am totally overwhelmed at the task at hand and start stressing myself out silly. My chiro has told me before to 'let it be easy' because nothing is really that hard, you just need to take the first step and get things done.

So anyway, as i was geeing myself up to do my expenses, on came this sudden urge to snack. Now i had already cleared out my pantry of all 'emotional eating foods aka PB!' so i decided to take Jason's advice and just STOP for a moment and feel the REAL emotion and not the emotional hunger. I knew the expense thing was starting to overwhelme me so instead of raiding the pantry - which i couldn't because i was FASTING i went to the computer and started on my expenses. Seriously, within about 5 mins any food cravings had disappeared and i didn't even think about food again till i got home from the hairdressers at 7pm last night, which was when i could eat again. After finishing my expenses i had a feeling of satisfaction- i had got the job done without procrastinating and without using food to temporarily distract my mind from the job. Kudos to me!

I woke up this this morning feeling fantastic! I had nailed day 1 and my body is seeing the benefits from the fast. Most of the bloat is gone, i'm feeling a lot tighter and leaner and i have been full of energy all day! And guess what? I just smashed my 10km outdoor run time by 4.5mins! I ran my first outdoor 10km last friday in 59mins and today in 54.30 mins! So now i have nailed day 2 and i'm on the biggest endorphin rush WOOT!

I am now ready to jump back on the scales this monday to track the weight-loss again.

My GOALS to achieve by NYE are:

Weight:     61kg
Body Fat:  12%
Body Fat:  60ml

10km Outdoor Run:    49 mins